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Name: Katie
Country: United States
State: Florida
Birthday: 10/3/1984
Interests: Music, Reading, anything with friends... laughing. Spending time with my Savior. I LOVE deep discussions about random things. I love thunderstorms...fireplaces...hot apple cider...checking things off a to-do list...smelling rain...
Occupation: Student
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AIM:  SunnyKEW
Member Since:
2/20/2004
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| Ok here comes a not quite so positive entry... Sorry guys but I need to vent...
I'm so tired. Its been literally weeks since I've slept normally. The past two nights I haven't been able to fall asleep til 4 in the morning. Every few nights I'll take a Tylenol PM and be able to sleep, but I don't want to take it every night because I don't want to become dependent on it... I don't really know what to do. I'm so exhuasted. The Lord has been faithful and is providing the amount of energy and strength I need to get through each day, but I don't know how much longer I can take of this. Im so discouraged.
I'm really struggling emotionally in several areas and I KNOW that the lack of sleep is whats causing me to not be able to think clearly. AND my finger hurts... I hurt it pretty bad a week ago... its either broken or jammed worse than anything I've jammed before... I just want things to get back to normal... I'm tired of life....Can I just quit for a while or something????
Anyways... Sorry this is so down..> I just wanted to vent what I was feeling... Don't take me too seriously :) I'll be fine tomorrow...or the next day... :) | | |
| I'm really doing a sorry job of keeping up with these posts... but thanks to everyone for reminding me of who actually reads this :) I feel loved again ha.... Anyways... I'm in a strange mood today... Strange because its not good or bad... just....something...
Guess I should stick to updating whats going on in my life....not much... I finally got my student teaching position a few weeks ago. I'm teaching in a 4th grade class at Liberty Elementary. I have absolutely fallen in love with those kids. They are amazing. This group of 4th graders switch around classes so in the Spring I'll be teaching all three writing classes, an advanced math class, and an inclusion reading/language arts class (inclusion classes are joint classes with special ed students.) This semester I'm just jumping in and helping where I"m needed. I'll probably do a little teaching, but nothing official...
Anyways I need to go call my sister.... but I felt the need to post... so there... | | |
| Well as crazy as life is and as much time as I DONT have to be doing this, I guess I should post to let people know I haven't fallen off the face of the earth. Its been quite a few months... I know my postings have been sparce... and I'm not really promising a change because to be honest, I don't really know if anyone reads this anymore anyways :)
BUT in case you do, here's a quick update... things are going a bit better. The medicines have started kicking in a bit. I still feel like a completely different person, but at least I feel like I can function. The Lord has continued to prove faithful in ways that totally astound me. (Not that I should have expected any different...) I'm still pretty overwhelmed about choices after college... I've narrowed down (for now) my options to either staying in Toccoa or moving back home to Tampa... My opinion on this matter literally changes every day... Today I'm wanting to move back home... Tomorrow...who knows? While I'm overwhelmed with the decision, I have a peace knowing that Christ is walking before me and already knows the steps I need to take. As long as I'm following Him I have no need to fear anything.
Anyways there's much more I could post, but there are actually real life things that need my attention at the moment. Adios. | | |
| Well I guess I should update, though this isn't much of an update. Things are pretty much the same. The meds are working a little bit... but not a whole lot yet. I'm still struggling with the emotions and stuff. The Lord is truly faithful though. I'm learning so much about relying on Him.
One thing He's shown me is that I need to be thankful because of this... Not necessarily "feel" thankful, but acknowledge that the Lord IS going to use this hurt and this pain for His glory. I need to rest in that and rejoice that He is working in my life and preparing me for something... I may never know what that "something" is... but He doesn't waste a hurt...Hmmm... Wish I could "feel" those convictions... but nevertheless...
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| Just another update... I went to the doctor and they gave me some anit-depressants to try for a month. These are the same meds that work for my aunt, so hopefully they will work for me. On the down side, it won't start working for another 2-3 weeks. I don't think I can keep going on feeling this way. I'm so tired of it. The past few days have been the worst.
Please pray for a miracle. | | |
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